I haven't written a blog post in two years. As I reread a couple of posts from two years ago, honestly not much has changed. I again tried to move. I again contacted a realtor here and in two other places and I again failed. I don't know what keeps me here. Is it my anxiety? Is it fear? It certainly is not this place of cement, steel and glass. this city that calls itself compassionate yet no one speaks to one another. And buildings get torn down to make way for more cement, steel and glass.
More impersonal. More cold. More money spent for the wealthy and less on much needed services for the poor.
I've decided l am living in the wrong time. I am still in the 60's and 70's. A time when I was truly with my element. When I was happy. When I was young yea, but also when I was doing something I enjoyed and I was doing! I was not crippled by anxiety.
I was fearless!
No more. I live like a hermit. I am a minimalist and could live with even less.
I don't belong here. This is not my home and never will be.
If I continue to live here,I will eventually become invisible.